There is peace in this, somewhere.

The energy in the Universe feels like it’s collecting, twisting, forming.

I know what I need to do.

My Mom cried today. Her tears sounded like old pain.

My Grandma is sick. Diabetes. She’s losing her vision. Her body is deteriorating. She is in her 70’s.

My Grandma was my first boss. I used to clean office buildings with her when I was a teenager. She has worked like a horse her entire life….up until just recently, when she fell ill.

She gave me my work ethic.

She is strong. And stubborn. And mean. And tiny. And powerful.

Thank you, Grandma, for everything you have taught us.

I took this picture of Mike and Erin last week. I love it so much; it captures the beauty of their spirits.

Also, I have every intention of using this head shot from now on when I’m Photoshopping Mike’s head onto things.

Thank you for being in my life, dear friends.

I adore you both.

LB,

You taught me the value of true friendship.

You are with me, everyday. I cherish you. You will never be replaced.

Happy Birthday.

I miss you.

SP

Conflicted, she stared ahead at the unresponsive wall of resistance that she herself had built.

There was a numbness coming over her.

How foolish she’d been.

Apprehensive, she made her way through the fog, stopping over and over to find her resolve.

She did not remove her armor.

How wise she’d been.

I am the purple sky.

I’ve had to do some thinking.

Yesterday was a rough day for me, because it stirred up a lot of old pain and resentment that I had done such a good job of detaching from.

My anger has subsided, but as I’ve been exploring these feelings today, I’ve come away with a few thoughts:

• There is one person who is allowed to represent me - that person is me. I have not given anyone permission to speak for me, and I never will.
• Those who claim to have the least amount of ego are historically the most egotistical people I’ve known.
• To the people who believe they should keep their friends close and their enemies closer, fuck you. If you can’t honor somebody that you’ve chosen for your life, you’ve chosen poorly. You’re only as good as the company you keep.
• My reality is my own and nobody has any right to judge it.
• Anyone who tries to steal your joy is not your friend.
• If you are giving unto others with the expectation that the favor will be returned some day, you’re giving for the wrong reasons. If you keep a running tally of every nice thing you’ve ever done, you’re an asshole.
• Don’t ever let anyone make you believe in a Truth that is not your own.

Disappointing, the way you cling to the fragments.

I can see right through you and your broken truth.

Scottie’s thoughtful nature.

Erin’s companionship.

When I can look at myself in the mirror and smile.

The girl in the elevator who is always genuinely kind and friendly.

Laughter and tears with Angie.

Veronica’s smile.

The lady in Paris who stopped to help me find my way.

There is nothing in this moment.

I am standing completely still.

But there is hope, you see.

Everything is in this moment.

You can feel it if you stand completely still.

Look carefully to find out if your spiritual search is a disguised form of ego.

-Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth