Frenchie taught me a good thing today.
Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass, it’s about learning how to dance in the rain.
-Unknown 

Currently to-do:

Earn large quantities of money. Stockpile for next Big Life Adventure TM.
Lose weight.
Get some rest.
Maintain perspective.

Shall I order men, or shall I weep at the fireside with the other [...]

Today I received a clean bill of health from the doctor. The women at the hospital were so incredibly kind to me.
Today was a reminder of what life is for.
Today I felt in touch with my authentic self.
Today I knew Grace.
Today I remembered to look upon myself with gentler eyes.
Today I remembered to follow [...]

I feel good today.
Optimistic.
I have made some decisions.
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The battery of the truck died yesterday, so my Mom came over last night to schlep me down to Auto Zone. We marveled in our sheer badassness as we replaced it ourselves.
My Mom is the strongest woman I know.
I am grateful for the lessons she has given [...]

I have been fighting for a deep breath all day.
I was a lot happier once.
I am doing the best I can.
I never thought the decisions I made a year ago would lead me here.
This has been a time of disappointment, strain.
I can see my lessons so clearly.
…
I understand the series of events.
I have enough strength [...]

There is peace in this, somewhere.
The energy in the Universe feels like it’s collecting, twisting, forming.
I know what I need to do.

My Mom cried today. Her tears sounded like old pain.
My Grandma is sick. Diabetes. She’s losing her vision. Her body is deteriorating. She is in her 70’s.
My Grandma was my first boss. I used to clean office buildings with her when I was a teenager. She has worked [...]

Conflicted, she stared ahead at the unresponsive wall of resistance that she herself had built.
There was a numbness coming over her.
How foolish she’d been.
Apprehensive, she made her way through the fog, stopping over and over to find her resolve.
She did not remove her armor.
How wise she’d been.
I am the purple sky.

I’ve had to do some thinking.
Yesterday was a rough day for me, because it stirred up a lot of old pain and resentment that I had done such a good job of detaching from.
My anger has subsided, but as I’ve been exploring these feelings today, I’ve come away with a few thoughts:

There is one person [...]

Disappointing, the way you cling to the fragments.
I can see right through you and your broken truth.